13 September 2007

A sneak peek...

I couldn't help myself. I had to post a sneak peek of what I made for the mermaid swap. This is a macro shot of my creations. Now for some reason, I can't seem to get working on the ATC to accompany the swap. Hopefully it'll be done this weekend and ready to mail next week.

A few changes in the groups at work next week but nothing major. I'll still have a bunch of crafty kids which I'm psyched about. For now, I started them on friendship bracelets for themselves and for their friends. Last Friday, only 7-8 were interested in doing them. Today I had at least 5 more working on them, including 4 boys. Such fun compared to last year where they didn't want to do anything except play sports. In the coming weeks, I'll be doing different projects with them so I'll possibly post a few picks about that.

Now that I'm working close to home and that I get to come back for lunch, I've been doing some cleaning, getting rid of stuff and reorganizing. In the past 2 weeks, I've done more cleaning than I usually do in a year! I feel great, more energized and positive. I've made some changes towards my relationship with food. Before this week, I would eat in the living room, in front of the television or the computer. I decided on Monday that my living room is now a FOOD-FREE ZONE. That means that I can't eat there. Not even a chocolate bar or popcorn while watching a movie. If I want to eat something, it has to be done while sitting at my kitchen table. That's it that's all! So far, I've managed to control myself. The only thing I allow myself to have in the living room is water or tea. Nothing else is allowed. I have to do this because I have a real problem with food. It's my addiction, if you will. There was a point where I would buy a box of cookies and by the end of the first evening, I'd already be halfway through the box. I had to force myself to stop eating. When I start eating something, especially sweets, if I don't set myself a limit beforehand, I completely lose control. There's no emotional reason behind this. I'm not eating my emotions or anything. It just seems that I'm hungry all the time. I mean really, ALL THE TIME! I know it's not normal but I'm now learning to deal with it. I drink more water or tea. I keep my hands busy (knitting, cutting, glueing, collaging, painting...) so as not to be able to hold food. It's not easy. Some days I just want to give in to temptation. But I stay strong. I will win this fight. I'm sure I'm not the only one dealing with this. I'm sure there are others like me out there who are just as scared or ashamed as I was to talk about it. Know that I understand. I've been there and I'm still there most days. I'm slowly seeing the light at the end of this long tunnel. You are not alone. WE are not alone. Stay strong. And keep your hands busy!!!

5 comments:

craftyhala said...

I should do a sneak peek as well...I have my ATC done, now just the packaging. That seems like the hard part!

Angela said...

Wooo I have all of mine done. I'm just waiting for an address to send it to! Wonderful post! :) *HUGS*

Gemma said...

Hi...Thank you for stopping by my new blog. So you work in an elementary school? I did that for a number of years as a para proffesional ....First in the library and then with 5th grade spec. ed. I totally understand that!!!
I still havn't done my mermaid...Probably start it soon. Sometimes I work better under pressure.xx

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CeeCee said...

Ooooh, that's not fair... I hate sneak peaks! they're such a tease :-)
I want to see the whole thing.
I admire your courage to change your eating habits. I am not ready to do that yet myself.
Hats off to you, my friend!
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